Planning ahead

First off I gotta say thank you for all the well wishes and prayers. It means a lot to me that I’m not alone in this.

The funeral was yesterday. And it was very emotional. I hate funerals. I’m sure nobody likes them. But I seriously hate them. But I felt like I needed to be there. After the funeral we went out and celebrated his life. Music, food and lots of booze. Seemed to sum up his life. In a good way of course. Lol. There was even a board that they had made up where you could write comments or whatever you want to him. It was made for his son, so that he would always remember who his father was.

And now that chapter is closed. For me at least. I can move ahead with planning for the future. I’ve decided to go back to my original route. The AI program at my clinic. So starting over, I have to chart my BBT for the next 3 months.

I hate charting my BBT.  It is so….. annoying. And tedious. But I gotta do it, I guess.

I just got another job. Job #3. I’m a busy lady. But I’m trying to bring in some extra cash that’s going to be needed for sperm. No school for the Fall semester. I’m studying for the TEAS V, which I have to take in about a week. If I get into this program, my life will be more hectic than usual. But I’m ready to get started!

Calling it Quits

I’m packing up my TTC stuff. Calling it quits…..

For Now.

I got a call this afternoon from my partner telling me that my KD passed away last night in his sleep.

I’m devastated. Hurt. Angry. You name it. I feel it.

He was only 37 and one hell of a guy. He had two children of his own, and was a great father to them.

My heart is heavy right now. And I don’t know what to say…..

Today I was supposed to go to his house to get started on our next insemination.

So now is the time to pack it up, take a step back and reevaluate our TTC journey. It hurts too much right now.